LYRICS
It came on me ‘bout ten years ago
Monkey on my back and it wouldn’t let go
God only knows where it came from
Must of been hidin’ like a man with a gun
I said to myself this isn’t me
I gotta put my mind straight set myself free
It took hold of my soul and dragged me so low
Hid beneath the covers there was no where to go

Now I know after all this time
How people lose track and cross the line
Lookin’ at death Not thinkin’ straight
Feelin’ there’s no controlin’ their fate
Wrap your arms around what’s deep in your soul
Keep your cards to your heart it’s not time to fold
Believe what you were taught “In God We Trust”
Don’t give up and wait until you Turn To Dust

I listened to myself and I listened to them
The demons kept comin’ back again and again
I fought the confusion I felt in my heart
But my crooked mind was tearin’ me apart
Never quite certain which way I should turn
No matter what I’d always get burned
Flesh to flame I was a broken man
Couldn’t see salvation in the palm of my hand

After all the years something broke through
I knew to myself I must be true
Break the emotions controllin’ my life
Do what I needed to keep my wife
In a foggy haze I saw help was near
But I couldn’t let go of all the fear
Years of tears turned my heart to rust
But I had to fight and not wait ‘til I Turned To Dust


Had to get strong make myself walk tall
Pick up my achin’ body whenever I’d fall
I was a better man than I had been
Thought I could beat it thought I could win
The darkest dark was finally gone
Saw the promise of the coming dawn
My mind began to open I started to see
All the evil thoughts that were killin’me

Now in a sky of blue
I could see everything that I already knew
Clouds had parted the darkness was gone
I could see all the things that I had done wrong
There’s always hope everyone should see
Be truthful to yourself if you want to stay free
Do what is right be honest and just
Be everything you can before you Turn To Dust